I view myself as pretty brave but this past year I really embrace bravery. Leaving my newspaper job was scary enough. Learning to trust myself, my husband and the universe was part of the most difficult and ultimately rewarding journey of my adult life.
Accepting that I was doing what was right for me was a big epiphany.
Of course, I had doubts. I remember wondering what former colleagues and co-workers thought. To some, I was weird to begin with. Were they having fun poking fun at my efforts? Was I too obsessed with my childhood? Was I propping myself as an expert on a non-topic? Was I inventing a passion to have something to do?
The chatter raged in my brain.
But eventually, it died down. I allowed myself space for quiet contemplation. I went back and studied my life, the life of my parents and relations and I wrote about it. I already possessed courage. Now I was ready to tell readers why.
That I signed up to share my dream journey for a year on 8WomenDream and wrote my little heart out, which is pretty astounding to me now. I found my focus early on and I trusted that people got it.
I think forgetting about what others think is crucial to pursuing your true dream.
I thought of my book as a wonderful life form that needed me as its midwife. On days when it was too hard I worked anyway on blind faith. If I had to tell myself I could have chocolate afterwards, that was okay. I’m sure plenty of surgeons imagine cocktails or golf or other rewards waiting for them when the nurses take over the suturing.
As I racked up chapters, I taught myself to embrace the work joyfully even if I’d rather be doing anything else.
When I started, the last thing I ever thought I’d consider is changing my working title to “Toxic Mom Toolkit.” But that’s exactly what I’m thinking of because my readers have become such a big part of my story.
Yep. It’s been quite a journey. I’ve learned to value my dreams, make room for them, and commit time and energy to them without apologies.
And if the kitchen floor looks bad, well… so what?
Looking back what do I think is the best reason to define a dream?
So you’ll know when you’ve finished it.