Warning!Â This is not going to be a very coherent, to-the-point post.
Jumbled mind = jumbled post.
My dream to become an accomplished equestrian has been thrown a major curve ball.Â Nikki, my alleged competition horse, has come up injured.Â His injury may be potentially career-ending.
Here’s what happened:
I had told them all of his history and all of the trouble I’ve been having with him.
After looking at him and watching him on the lunge line (and experiencing) Nikki trying to kill John when asked to lunge to the left, just as he does with me), they suggested that he perhaps hurt his back in the past.
An injury would explain a lot.
It would explain the sudden onset of Nikki’s severe, dangerous refusal to lunge to the left.Â It would explain his pinned ears and irritated bucking when I ride him and ask for anything more than a walk.Â It would explain why, last time I rode him, I commented to my husband that Nikki “just didn’t feel right”, particularly in his back.
Dr. Harlan, my vet, came out on Thursday.
He agreed that something is definitely wrong with Nikki.Â He also didn’t really have a diagnosis.Â We went over Nikki’s history.Â He hasn’t had a big crash.Â He hasn’t gotten cast (basically, stuck) in his stall that I know of.Â He’s never showed any sign of lameness.Â No swelling, no heat, no nothing anywhere.
Just the terrible, terrible behavior.
On Dr. Harlan’s exam there was no tenderness to palpation, nothing obviously wrong, save a little swelling over his left rump area.Â Hmmmm . . . a puzzle, indeed.
A puzzle that has left me in disbelief.Â Are you kidding me?
My beautiful, fancy show horse may have a career-ending injury???
Dr. Harlan referred us to Pioneer Equine Hospital in Oakdale.Â Hopefully, an extensive workup there will result in some definitive diagnosis and we can make decisions from there.
I called my husband in tears, still in disbelief.
I don’t know what I want to do.
For now, I’m trying to be patient.
First step is to get Nikki evaluated and find out if rehab is a possibility.Â Â I don’t think I can stomach searching for a new horse right now.Â I have scheduled another lesson with Heather on one of their horses.Â Unfortunately, I just had to postpone that a week due to my work schedule.
Besides the Nikki problem, I’ve been so, so busy.
There’s still the giant pile of stuff from float sitting in the middle of my living room.Â I’ve managed to get the laundry done, horses turned out and brushed, and that’s it.Â I’ve been in court every single day.Â I’ve got two trials coming up.Â And my mind is completely filled with other things.Â That’s probably good because its kept me from completely freaking out about Nikki.
‘Til next week . . .
(Danelle left 8 Women Dream in March of 2010 and is still workingÂ on her dream is to become an accomplished equestrian)