It’s that time of night that I have to get my thoughts into gear, write something about progress, or lack of, and write about dreaming. I sit here wondering, again, what the heck am I going to write about?
Where are my dreams?
What makes me happy?
Not getting old, that’s for sure.
I think I’m experiencing mid-life crises. (Wow, I didn’t think I’d go there but here it is, as thoughts jumble out of my head) I hate it. I don’t like getting old. I want to be young again. To be excited about what’s to come. Instead, I see my skin sag, my energy subside, and my memory slowly deteriorate. Yuck. Besides watching my children experience life, I can’t find anything else to be excited about. Things are interesting for sure, but excitement?
And how much excitement do we need? How often? How much should be expect?
What’s more pathetic is that I can’t even think of what would be exciting. Jumping out of a plane? Hang gliding? Meeting new people? Going somewhere? I have no idea. Maybe nothing. Maybe the exciting part of my life is over and I’m just in parental mode. That’s scary.
I’m working on my New Year’s Resolution thoughts. Trying to find some excitement in 2010 will be on the list. And positive excitement, no negative drama please;)
I’ll let you know if I find anything.
On another note, Christmas is a-coming fast!
I am ready.
We have communicated with our Japanese exchange student so we know her name and age. She is 13 and has never been to America before. She’s very cute. We’re not sure about her English skills yet, but we will find out soon! Â She is arriving on the 23rd. We’re all a little nervous or apprehensive about the experience, but that’s just what it is: an experience. Â I have no expectations about it other than finding a little more about Japan.
She wants to find as many differences from Japan as she can and see as much as she can.
Maybe we will find some “exciting” things to do;)
More next week.
Have a wonderful holiday!
(Kim has already accomplished her first big dream by traveling to New York with her teenage daughter June of 2009. She lost 20 pounds and overcame her intense dislike (do we say fear?) of flying to accomplish that dream. She rotated off the blog in February 2010, but still hangs out with 8 Women Dream.Â You can find her in the comments section)