I am trying to love what is in my life right now and not get too caught up in all the possible tomorrows that float around in my mind while I drift off to sleep at night.
There is a part of me that fears if anyone knew the ache that comes up in my soul when I allow myself to really dream about this want of mine (which sometimes wakes me up at night) then it will never come true.
For me, the thought of this little dream of mine not happening is too painful even to ponder.
I think some of this comes from loosing a beloved parent just as my life was about to take off. It was as if a rug was pulled out from under my heart. It wasn’t until my son Brian was born that I began to believe in tomorrows once again.
I mean hell, try having a toddler touch all your work clothes with their sticky, gewy hands and puke up, and tell me that you cannot think about tomorrow, even if it is how in the heck you are going to get tomorrows clothes cleaned in time for work.
I have no trouble knowing what my dream looks, smells, touches and feels like. I just don’t know how to make it happen faster, or even happen at all.
Is my writing good enough? Will people want to hear what I have to say? Can Brian and I be on that plane flying to New York together for my book signing NOW? Oh yeah wait, I actually have to write the book! Where in the hell is the time for THAT?
The best thing I could do to ease my soul for the want of this dream was to create a group with other women who share the same aches toward something in their lives, and I might know that I am not alone. In return, I hope to help them achieve their dreams while laughing, crying and hugging each other as we push ourselves to stretch outside of our self-imposed boxes.
This group has already given me more than I imagined with their simple words of wisdom and comfort. I am looking forward to this ride – and the great story.
With support I feel anything is possible.
And some help from the magic of believing. . .
What do you believe in?
Keep on dreaming -
Catherine
Catherine’s dream is to be a motivator and published writer. She is testing her theories on motivation with this blog and the seven other women who have volunteered to be a part of her dream project. Catherine also writes about her life as a mom at the blog A Week In The Life Of A Redhead. She would also like to be invited to speak at TED as the next Erma Bombeck. She published her first e-book September 2010 and is working on her 2nd – dreams do come true! Catherine posts on Monday mornings.
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Catherine’s dream is to make 8 Women Dream the premier online publication for women looking to change their lives. She is a published author, known for her humorous speeches on finding your dream life and blogging for fun and profit. Catherine also writes about her life as a mom at the blog, A Week in the Life of A Redhead and several online marketing publications. She would also like to be invited to speak at TED about her observations on people chasing their big dreams. Catherine posts on Sunday evenings and fills in when needed. Join me on Google+ rapieress@aol.com
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