Confessions of an African Ex Beauty Queen: Dream Bigger

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Sue Faith Levy is a motivational speaker and top blogger from South Africa. As an aspiring author and philanthropist. Sue's big dream is to spread her messages of hope and gratitude to women around the world with her motivational speeches and inspirational messages. If you aren't sure how to comment on this story, click here.

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 Confessions of a Ex Beauty Queen on Dreaming Bigger DreamsBecoming a motivational speaker is one of the most satisfying dreams in the world.

To make a positive difference in the lives of those you speak to by lifting their spirits with your words makes me appreciate life to the fullest.

It’s a satisfaction that I almost can’t describe.

For as long as I can remember I have dreamed of living a life where people and life’s adventures create joy for me, for my family, and for those I come in contact with.

My dream to make a positive difference in the world has been compulsory as far back as I can remember.

I don’t recall a time in my life where I didn’t care about making some type of change to my surroundings.  I’ve always gone the extra mile to create joyful experiences for myself, for my friends, and for my family.

I am proud that I am like this.

Confessions of a Ex Beauty Queen: Why I was always a runner up

I originally wanted to become many things in life.

For several years my big dream was to be a beauty queen. I came close to obtaining this dream, but with every attempt to be Miss Cape Peninsula (the beauty queen of my Province) and Miss South Africa, something always seemed to block my  receiving the crown.

It was as if the world had other plans for me.

I was very determined to be a beauty queen in spite of my losses.  Looking back, I now wonder why I put myself through all of it.

As is turned out, the beauty industry was not as honest as I believed it to be — at least here in South Africa. It was all about who you knew and your connections.

Fortunately, I didn’t allow the “almosts” to push me in to getting a boob and nose job, even though these options were once seriously considered. I’m grateful for coming to my senses, for growing up, and instead making the decision to pursue a career in design, rather than prancing around in high heels all day long. Confessions of a Ex Beauty Queen: Sue after a beauty contest

At one point I was so serious about being a beauty queen and such a perfectionist about my demeanor that I put myself through grooming classes just to learn how to speak well.  I spent so much money perfecting my image that my parents had to lay down strict rules to ensure that I would graduate from school as a multimedia designer.

Their rule: No modeling if my grades suffered.

My short-lived life as a beauty queen contestant did have its perks.  The finalists lived in 5 star hotels, dined on gourmet food, received designer gifts, along with hair makeovers, while pretending to live a life of the rich and famous.

It all seemed like I was living my real dream until I was introduced to the beauty pageant charity work.

My last attempt for a big crown was in 2005.  It was during this contest that I had the opportunity to help the Tygerbear Foundation. The Tygerbear Social Work Unit helps traumatized children and families in South Africa.

There are young girls there who have such brutal pasts (I shall not go into detail as it is disturbing, but you can possibly imagine the horror stories) that volunteering there forever changed me.

The moments spent with the children if the Tygerbear Foundation are priceless to me.  The response from the girls to having someone like me care enough to brush their hair took my breath away.  They acted like it was a luxury.  It was in these moments that I realized how blessed my life was and that I needed to do more.Dreaming Bigger Dreams: The girls I want to help My real life purpose came to me when one of the little girls said something to me as I was leaving to go back to my hotel. I was giving all the girls a kiss goodbye and as I knelt down to hug one of them, she reached up and grabbed be tightly  — I’ll never forget how tightly she clung to me.  It’s bringing tears to my eyes as I write about it. (Gosh where are my tissues!)

She whispered, “Thank You!”

Her thank you was like no thank you I had ever heard.  It came from some place deep inside of her heart and I knew the words meant more than “thank you.”  A sadness washed over me because I wished I could do more. I was just this beauty contestant. What could I do?  Another girl was staring at me and as I looked at her, she said,

“I wish you were my mommy.”

As long as I live I will never forget this moment.

Her words sent shivers down my spine and guilt rushed over me like the howling winds of Cape Town. I was only 23-years-old. What did I know about being a mom? Nothing.  I realized there was more to this world than chasing a crown.  Suddenly being a beauty queen just wasn’t for me anymore.

In some sort of surreal way the experience made sense to me.

I believe that I was sent there so those girls could feel love from me and know there is more to life than what they’ve experienced. There are people in this world who really do care what happens to them.

I no longer cared about the crown.

All my preparation, all my studying of the South African Legislature, and all my  reading up on politics meant nothing.Confessions of a Ex Beauty Queen Here was this little girl who wished with all of her being to just have the love of a mother.

I couldn’t have asked for a better epiphany. After the competition, I decided never to enter another beauty contest again.  I would devote my life to something else.  I’d find a way to make a difference.

I didn’t win those competitions because God had bigger plans for me.  God wanted me to dream bigger.

I thought my dream was one thing, but the world showed me that I was putting limitations on my idea of dreaming.  I could do more.  I could be more.

I was never supposed to live a life of glitz and glamor.

I, Sumia Faith Levy was born to make a difference in the lives of young women and to live a life of purpose.

I now know that this purpose involves using my emotional sensitivity to share positive, heartfelt self-expression through the words that I speak when I am in front of young women and when I write those same words on my blog for anyone to read.

I will not give up on my dream to reach a global audience of young women with my motivational speeches and books that encourage them to believe in themselves, to believe that they do matter, and that they can survive.Confessions of a Ex Beauty Queen: Helping young girls With love from South Africa,


PS. I was just contacted to speak to a group of young girls about grooming. I guess the grooming classes didn’t go to waste after all. I’m happy to inspire young woman to love themselves and feel comfortable in their skin. When you put your dreams out there, the universe really does answer.

Confessions of an ex Beauty Queen