Waiting for Dreams to Warm Up

Rayne In the Wine Country where I live the grass on the rolling hills is so green it hurts your eyes right now.

Not too long ago we moved our clocks ahead to move away from winter, but winter had a trick up its sleeve. Just a week after the local front page declared bud break on our region’s grape vines, a deep chill in the air returned.

If it’s cold here in California, how cold is it in Iowa?I thought. Would I freeze in a hotel room or slide off an icy road where I need to go; I need to get to, to finish my book; to complete my dream here at 8WomenDream?

Although I still have laborious re-writing, editing and writing to do on “Confessions of an Undutiful Daughter” I feel that I have but one major task left on my dream of writing my book.

Yes, I need to build a website for my book, which will also mean creating a safe venue to address the toxic mom topic and welcome fellow undutiful daughters to the discussion. This topic really needs a venue, a forum, and I want to provide it.

But besides the web stuff and writing stuff and waving at all of my readers – hey – over here now – I also need to go to Iowa to see the town in which my birth mother grew up. I can’t explain why exactly, I just know I have to.

And as soon as it warms up, I’ll go.

During this past year as an 8WomenDream.com blogger I learned to trust my beloved husband as well as myself. After all, I quit my job and have been home while he worked. Yeah, I know writing is work, but you know what I mean. During this period, I’ve learned that fear is a time waster. I discovered that there are more women with lousy mom relationships than great ones.

That telling what happened is better than acting like nothing happened. And a big lesson — that dreams matter.

In the coming weeks I’ll be building a website to continue this journey. I hope you’ll visit me there and bookmark and share the destination. I hope you will be my Face Book friend and order my book via on-demand printing at Amazon.com (if I can figure out how to do that!) Actually, I’m hoping for a lot of things — mostly energy to do all this.

And I’m hoping that as the weather warms up my plans to visit Iowa will firm up. And that you’ll follow me on my Midwest journey, which should help to put the final touches on “Confessions of an Undutiful Daughter.”


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  • Ruben Weinman

    This is good. I know this will help me personally in what I am doing. I’m going to share this with my friends.

    • Rayne

      Thank you Ruben! I always ask male posters how my blog on dealing with toxic mothers helps them. I’m always curious. Can you tell me a little bit more about why this is of interest to you? My email is newsyrayne@gmail.com, which might be better than posting!

  • Nadine

    Thanks to you Rayne. You have no idea how much strength your blog has give me to finally break free. And to start focussing on my dreams again.

  • Nadine, thank you so much for your support and encouragement. It’s helping me. – Rayne

  • Nadine

    I just wanted to say how I am looking forward to your website. And wishing you all the best on your visit to Iowa!

  • I look forward to reading about your journey and helping you with anything you need to get that book published and out into the world.


  • KB

    Rayne, We haven’t met yet but Catherine can share with you who I am. My mother and grandfather are from Iowa, too. And I have been thinking about a pilgrimage to her birthplace as well. I look forward to following your journey and finding inspiration for my own. Cheers! ~KB

  • Carole


    It has been fun following you on your journey. I can’t wait to follow you on the next phase.


  • Remy Gervais, Top Photographer

    It has been such a journey and watching you work your dream – helping others as well – I know the next phase of your dream will be amazing too! xox Rem