Exploring Healing the Scars of Child Abuse

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stolen beauty healing the scars of child abuseSome books are hard to put down; others like Amy Madden’s “Stolen Beauty: Healing the Scars of Child Abuse: One Woman’s Journey,” are hard to pick up.

I just finished reading Madden’s book, a memoir so chilling in its description of sexual abuse of a child that it gave me nausea. Reading this book is part of my current work/write regimen that requires sampling dozens of women’s memoirs that capture different facets of toxic parenting.


I’m a big reader of non-fiction anyway. I love people’s stories. If there’s a component of extreme family dysfunction, I pull down the drapes. I unplug the phone to read till the room falls dark.

Amy Madden is a travel writer from Atlanta, Georgia and from the looks of her photo on the back cover; she’s a beautiful gal; and the mother of three beautiful kids. But, Lord, what this girl went through as a child at the hands of a pervert step-father. I thought I knew what child molesters do. I had no idea.

She is able to capture in excruciating detail the abused child’s thought process including confusion, shame and guilt. As a child she was great at keeping everything a secret. Like a lot of children she felt much of what happened to her was her fault. She never told her mother, her sisters (who she later found out were also abused), her teachers or any adult. Indeed, she took the abuse and swallowed it whole making her a distrustful, insecure teen.

As an adult she spent years trying to sort out what had happened to her until a phone call changed her life. After keeping her secret for decades Madden was called upon to give testimony against her abuser after he was charged with molestation. That she was able to face her stepfather and tell her story in open court is a luminous lesson in courage.

We haven’t explored sexual abuse on this blog but I know that many daughters of toxic mothers suffer through incidents of abuse. Some girls are left alone too much by their mothers and men take advantage. Other toxic mothers side with a husband/stepfather/or other male family member over a daughter who claims abuse. The reader questionnaires I have received sadly include many descriptions of the loneliness that girls who are sexually abused suffer.

There is so much wisdom in Madden’s book.

If this topic is of interest to you, please read this book. It’s honest, smart, loving and helpful. It’s the kind of book I’m endeavoring to write.

Let me share with you some of her wisdom.

“When the abuse started in my life, I was only six years old. I didn’t know anything about hate, but I quickly learned. The first person I hated was myself, although Ed (the stepfather) ran a close second. I hated myself and was ashamed for not doing something about my situation.”

“I still blamed myself and convinced myself that it was my fault that I was being abused. Even though I was only a little girl, I had those thoughts.”

“I carried all these negative beliefs forward and used them to fuel my own self-loathing when things went wrong in my life. It took me nearly thirty years to see the importance of finding a way to love myself.”

“It’s natural to want someone to love us or to want someone to love, but if we first learn to love ourselves, our reasons for wanting love change. We stop looking for someone to complete us and instead look for someone to share our completeness with us. We look for someone who will understand who we are and love us because of it.”

Until next Sunday, be well.

Love yourself first.

Rayne Wolfe’s dream is to write her first book Confessions of an Undutiful Daughter by the end of 2011. She completed her dream journey May of 2011 on 8WD after a year living her dream. You can find her at Toxic Mom Toolkit on Facebook.

  • Beautiful blog Rayne – my heart aches for that woman and I haven’t even read the book yet! Thanks for sharing your experiences in what you are discovering as you go through your own process in writing your book.


  • Heather Montgomery, CEO & serial entrepreneur

    That would take a lot for me to pick up – but thank you for sharing. I’ve overcome a lot from my childhood, but nowhere near the intensity of this story.

    I am so looking forward to your book – thanks for your bravery! – H

  • Laurie

    These books kill me. Remember The Bell Jar? That book put me under for awhile. It’s crazy how common this stuff is. I hope you’re reading a little light-hearted faire in between research books. This is a tough journey.
    Blessings, Laurie

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  • Remy G

    I’m with Cath, I’m so grateful to have had a non abusive childhood. What you must be reading on those questionnaires. Thank you for taking this project on, and for loving yourself enough to stick it out in order to help others too. xox Remy

    • Rayne

      I really learned a lot from this book. It was pretty fearless.

  • Every time we explore this topic I am grateful for my childhood, even if it ended with my father dying of cancer. I think it’s like that story where everyone puts their burdens in the center of the group and people can chose a different burden and everyone chooses their own.

    So sick to hurt a child, esp your own. It’s really hurting yourself too. Very sad. So brave of her (and you) to bring this out into the light so that people can heal.